A Casual Observer.
A Wilful Vessel.
A Weary Traveler.
A Starshaper.
A Contradiction.
- 余所目、意欲 、矛盾、 クモの巣 -
The blue bowl of the sky,
All glorious with the blaze of a million worlds,
All change is violent.
A sky full of anxious words,
A sea of loose thoughts and desires.
My memories will be part of the sky...
Happiness Spiral.
If you're happy, i'm happy.
If I'm happy, you're happy,
Become one with the spiraling nonsense.
Lost in the static, I've been trying to get that taste off my tongue,
I can’t chase the flavor from my mind, there is something in the white matter.
I'm sorry if it seems i'm scared to talk to you.
The world is beautiful because it isn't.
You're all so disgustingly beautiful.
So beautifully terrifying.
You're Potential.
If you don't like where you're heading, there's no shame in changing your path,
nobody knows what's going on,
so be kind,
a little bit of good faith can go a long way.
You don't have to apologize to others for being who you are.
I have never felt ashamed of knowing you.
Thank you for existing.
You're evil is someone's good,
My demon in the spiral.
Your good is someone's evil,
My angel in the static.
Find your way.
We’re born without reason, prolonged out of weakness, and can die by chance.
Life ends before it begins.
Why'd you come into this world
or come out that way?
Maybe you're doomed from the beginning.
Some day you'll have no reason to be afraid.
I love you.
Take all those bricks.
Learn what you can change.
and become a Starshaper.
Don't stop making beautiful things.
What you bring to the world is more important than you can ever know.
I will fly to you on wings full of hope.
No matter the cost or pain.
Let's be angels flying around eachother.
Peacefully floating, gentle embrace.
As as long as your here.
Floating in an ethereal space.
I hope we find our heaven.
People can be Hell,
But they can also be heaven too.
The People who are Heaven cause Time Dilation.
Please find them,
Hold onto them,
and live forever.
Live in spite of Hell.
For the sake of your trembling timid heart
Live in spite of Hell.
Live in spite of Hell.
Live in spite of Hell.
We
are perpetually trapped in a never ending spiral of
life and death.
"If God demands it, then we can't help it"
A cycle born through pain and scorn
Since the death of God there's been a vacancy open
Is disapproval
what it takes to live again?
Flowing into my mind
like a torrent of waves
barometric
pressure
the room shrinks
I feel the rain before it comes
yet I need to
swim.
despite the shame, fear, and embarrassment
despite the horror, the sadness, the void that calls us to sleep
They say we are asleep, until we fall in love.
Forced awake,
I look at me and don't think i'm strange,
I want to bloom into something beautiful.
Please,
Please,
Don't let me die while i'm like this.
Reaper, sir, don't you take me
yet,
as the stars fill my head.
it's always been
starshaped
it's always been other
it remembers your eyes
It remembers there glare
hidden in layers of black
behind the
brilliant veil
it is many
it's safer here
but never enough
it never feels enough
so they extend the branch
it's frail despite it's visage
it wishes to bloom
so please treat it with care
it just wishes to be like you.
I want to show the world my being
more than my flesh, more than my 'purpose'
more than my parts were meant to accomplish
more than 'what I was meant to be'
More than wishes and desires
more than 'what I deserve'
hugging the
reflection
A flower blooms.
There is still time.
Mememto Mori.
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